Anyone who has/had OCD? Please help?

So I'm a 14 year old girl with severe OCD. Its caused me to be admitted into the hospital before. Last week, I passed out from panic. Im so afraid of contamination that I wash my hands until they bleed, and I barely ever eat. I'm always afraid my food will be contaminated, I've gone so long without eating that I was admitted to the hospital. OCD ruins my life, and I hate it. I live my WHOLE LIFE in fear of getting sick. I avoid certain people, places, and situation just due to my fears. I have hundreds of dumb rituals that I have to do. Anyways I'm on 40 mg o Prozac and I have a prescription for Xanax, but ive never taken the Xanax because it seems kind of intimidating. Anyways, please tell me your experiences with OCD. Let me know I'm not alone :) thanks