What do i do when i have2 lovers ? and love them the same way?

so i've meet someone ( and i wana name him i0) 2 years ago and everything was perfect with him, but he was at another country ,until i so the other guy ( and i'll be calling him s0) im in love with i0 and we had a problem and we broke up for no reasons and so i went with s0 and he loved me like no one did and even lost his job just to stay with me and even he introduced me to his family but his mother didn't really liked me ,he have a great way to spoiled me -words gifts everything that a girl would dreams of ,but he dosn't listen to me i mean when i wanna talk or even tell him how i fell ,i sometimes fell that he is with me because im hot and wants to have sex with me ! the rest was all fine and fun with him ,he is nice and kind . and about i0 he loves me 2 more then anything in this world and he would forgives me for anythng i do he always listen to me and helps me with every problem and everything i need he wants to ask my hand from my father but he wll take a long time to do that cuz he wants to finish college and get a job , also the same with s0 but s0 didnt finish college and looking for a job!!! , they are best friends now thanks to god then me >_> ,i dont want to hurt any of them ,and i cant get married too the both of them , and i dont wnat to live them ! i just want them to be with me always . what should i do ? :(