Christians, I feel rejected by the lord.?

I would appreciate if some Christians could give me positive feedback. I'm having a really tough time with life right now, and dealing with some internal conflict. I've been suffering from an intense anxiety disorder for over two years, and I am trying to stay strong but it feels so useless. I have prayed for the Lord to relieve me of this and lift this burden, but I still hear no response.. What the hell do i do? I read the bible, and I have gotten on my knees and prayed, but I still feel alone.. Maybe I should go to church and pray. The last time I visited church was nine years go.. Hopefully that will help me grow closer to him because I feel our bond growing apart.. I don't want that to happen.