Help. I can't stop loving her and I don't think I want to.?

I'm in love with someone I will probably never be able to have. It's not even really a question. I don't stalk her. I wait for her. If I see her cool. If I don't it hurts. If she's mean to me, I let her. If she's nice to me. It makes me happy. She has good days, and bad days. I work as a cashier and so I see her when I see her. I had lunch with her once, but I don't think she cares much for my past. I've let her verbally abuse me until she felt better and I never showed anger. She knows there isn't anything I wouldn't do for her. I haven't asked for her number and she hasn't offered it. I pray for her. I cry over her. She means the world to me and yet I doubt I will ever have her. I'm a fool for her.