Ok, so i want to die,and have alot of problems, im 14 years old guy?

i have depression, i have so many problems, no one else my age has to deal with, life seems unfair, and im not just being over dramatic, i cant controll my saddness, plus all i really wnt is for ppl to understand me, and i really want a girl friend, i think that wud hlp alot idk. but i am a christian, but a struggleing one... i pray alot but god doesnt seem to answer. It is a struggele evrey day for me jsut to feel normal. i know consueling might help, but to me it doesnt seem like it would. i just want some one special to love me, go to college, have a decent house, and have a normal steady job in my furture but all of that seems COMPLETLEY IMMPOSSIBLE. and i just wanna skipp life and go strait to heaven, because i dont wanna keep suffering like this. please help? thanks